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Adaptation and Animals...I consider writing scientific papers as one of the most noble thing that you can do in your lifetime. Have you ever asked yourself, what's the major difference between humans and animals ? We all might give different answers to this question, but the essense of all the answers remains same.
{For the sake of this discussion, I am considering Animals and Humans as two different entities} Humans have an higher ability to modify the environment they live compared to other animals. Now, I am sure, my answer should have surprised you because it was not the same that you were thinking. Don't hurry, I can give you reasons to justify my answer but i want you to think about it. Just to make you easier, one such example "Humans conquered the darkness of night with the innovation of "lights". Have you seen any other animal that innovated an artificial system for conquering darkness ?" Now, that brings us to one major question. Should we modify the environment we live around or should we adapt to it ? Almost all animals have a higher tendency to adapt to the environment or become extinct. But, its the humans that have got a great tendency to modify/change the environment they live in, such that it becomes easier,safe and pleasurable to sustain. You don't see an animal building dams, you don't see an animals trying to make spaceships but you do find Humans spending lot of effort in innovating, discovering things that are not inbuilt in the environment. Ofcourse, even animals do try to innovate in some way or the other but human have a higher tendency to do it and that's what makes the difference. Hence, I can say that the ability of humans to innovate and modify the environment differentiates them from the millions of animals. Innovation is harmful when it modifies the environment to cause destruction, however most of the innovations that have been done have benefited humans. When I use the term "environment", its not just confined to the "enivronment that surrounds us", it means every possible thing that exists around us. In that generic sense, I can include stars, planets, galaxies and every possible thing that exists in this universe as part of our environment. Actually, the definition for environment depends upon the thoughts of the individual. For a school kid, the environment is all that happens in the school, for the Prime Minister of the nature, the environment is all the things that occur in the nation. And so on, the scope and size of environment increases. Undoubtedly, for a scientist, the environment is whole Universe. Everything that's existing in the universe should be part of his/her environment.
In our day to day life, we come acrosss hundreds of modifications that we have made to the exisiting environment. Today we are using computers, refrigerators, wireless phones, watches, etc all represent the modifications we have made to the environment. If you probe deeper into this scenario, you will find Humans have been making modifications ever since their evolution. Today we wear clothes, that's again a modification. Have you seen any species other than humans that wears all the well designed clothes ? That's the reason I say animals have higher tendency to adapt to the environment whereas humans have higher tendency to modify. Probably, questions that are puzzling across your brain at the moment is, why am I saying all this ? How is it related to papers ? Be pateint, I will answer them all. Every modification that humans have been making requires innovation of some kind. From Wheels to Nuclear Bombs, there have been people who have spend their creativity in innovating and modifying the environment around us. Even though I have been using the term "humans" all through out this discussion, not every human has contributed to the modifications. In fact, most of the humans have just waited for others to innovate. Ofcourse, we can easily equate them to animals. Nonetheless, we are the most innovative species created by God and we have to keep up that reputation forever. And the only way to keep up that reputation is to continuously innovate and change the environment around us. If we fail to do so then there isn’t much difference between humans and animals. I have heard many people saying that “it’s not possible for everyone to do innovation”. My friends you are absolutely wrong. When you claim that everybody is equal then why can’t everyone do innovation? Innovation can be anything, it can be just a simple thing in your day to day life which doesn’t significantly impact others or it can be a discovery of lifetime. But a Human has to do innovations of some kind in this lifetime just to prove that he has lived his/her life like a human rather than an animal. Now you might ask me, what’s innovation? My friends, I again reiterate, it could be ‘anything’. My mom makes a special chicken dishes for me which you won’t find anywhere. I call that as innovation as it’s impacting my life and those dishes are not found anywhere. At this point, I would also like to make it clear, I am not calling the dishes as innovation as my mom has an ability to create some hypothetical taste that pleases me, but the fact that “they are not found anywhere”. The recipe used in it is “invented” by my mom. So that makes an INNOVATION. In other words, innovation is about making something theoretical or practical which was so far unknown to mankind. Every time we find a new thing, the human race goes one step away from being an animal whereas every second you waste in adapting to existing environment; you are marching one step closer towards being an animal. Thoughts to build on...'Thoughts' that human brain generates are not only mysterious but sometimes very misleading as well. Your whole character is based upon the thoughts produced by your brains continiously. Everything that you do, everything that you say is nothing but the implementation of some of your the thoughts. The mystery of thoughts is that you are never sure what thought are you going to produce the next moment. However, based on your character one can guess the range of thoughts you can generate. Scientifically we can say that "Character" is similar to a complex system that generates future outputs based upon "past inputs". Human characters are not as simple as we visualize it to be. If the characters were simple, our lifes wouldn't have been full of emotions. The simpler the character is, the lesser the emotions are. I don't know why I am sounding so philosophical today. But let me not deviate from the topic at least today, my general tendency is to start from origin and end up at infinity !!
People judge your character based upon your "Public thoughts". Public thoughts are the actions that you have done in your life publicly (known to people). However, it is misleading to believe that actual character of a person is based upon so called public thoughts. Human brain generates millions of "private thoughts". Some of these thoughts we reveal it before the people we are close with and many we confine it to ourselves. The actual character of a person is based upon the combination of both public thoughts and private thoughts. Every decision that you make, every future step that you make is based upon the public thoughts and private thoughts. Let's do this scientifically since i am best at science.
Public Character ( Cp) = F ( public thoughts)
Actual Character ( C ) = F ( public thoughts, private thoughts)
Where 'F' is the judging function. Judging function is again dependent on the person who is judging.
The above equation can also be represented as
Public Character of X in Y's point of view ( Cpxy) = F( public thoughts of X, public thoughts of Y, private thoughts of Y)
Y can never determine the actual character of X unless Y = X.
"You are the best judge of yourselves". And yes, finally we have the scientific proof for that. It is impossible for 'Y' to know all the private thoughts of 'X'. Private thoughts are continious and even if you decide to share it with some person, the only way this could happen is that "you keep on saying simultaneously all the thoughts generated by your brain" to that person. Considering all the natural scenarios, it is impossible for you to simultaneously speek out all your thoughts to some other person day and night. By the way, those crazy love birds who at this moment are doubting this fact, let me say you "private thoughts" are generated even when you are 1 sec old.
Well, you can see from above that things are getting complex, but that's how complex we all are. We know people around us by their public thoughts and we aren't sure what there private thoughts can be. That's the reason so many people get misunderstandings, breakups and all sorts of crazy things happen between them. I am not a Love Guru, let me tell you, when you say you know a person, think again and if you are still not convinced that you are wrong, just have a look at the mathamatical proof given above.
Life is not about knowing a person, life is about making yourselves known to others. Wow, i just realised something special. If i can't be a scientist, I can be a good philosopher!! Once the people know you more, they will be able to get close to knowing your actual character. That way, there is a possibility of strong relationships. Anyhow, like many people say, relationships are based upon trust and faith. Sometimes trust and faith by others can modify your private thoughts and you might become a real good human being.
COMPACT DISCRETE THEORY OF UNIVERSEStephen Hawking in his book "A BRIEF HISTORY OF TIME" mentions a strange fact about the thinking of the people before twentieth century as " It is interesting reflection on the general climate of thought before the twentieth century that no one had suggested that the universe was expanding or contracting." I am not referring here about the expanding universe but I am pointing at the thinking of people. This was the time when infinite static model failed and yet people tried to justify by assuming illogical phenomenon of repulsive gravity. This particular statement holds good even today. In order to explain present day quantum physics the "people" have gone crazy enough to predict ten to eleven dimensions. They are just trying to complicate things by involving various parameters and dimensions. But God created this universe so that every ordinary person can understand it and appreciate the glorious creation. Here I have tried to bring forward a whole new way of understanding universe with simple language and common sense. If you spare few minutes and read this paper it will change your thinking.
In real number system we consider there exists infinite number of numbers present between two numbers. This is something that requires no proof. But applying real numbers to physical matter or to any system existing in universe doesn't hold good. I am nor a mathematician neither a Professor but I can justify the above statement using a bit of common sense. Can a point (for example (x, y, z )) exists in a continuous coordinating system ? This question might sound totally ridiculous but that very question has given me sleepless nights. After a lot of effort I came to a conclusion that it doesn't exist. A point can exist only in a discrete system. In order to explain this lets consider a simple experiment. Suppose you have an rod of length "L" and you have to cut it in pieces as small as possible. If I ask you how much time will it take you would say few hours or for a large rod few days. And that is where you make an mistake. The answer is for any valve of "L" it would take infinite time. If you don't agree with me then this thought experiment will convince you. Imagine you were able to do pieces of millimeter order, then still you haven't reached the smallest length. So you again start cutting and somehow you reached nanometer order, then also you haven't reached smallest length. So you again start cutting it and even you reach fermi level there still exists smallest length because you have assumed real number system holds good for measuring length. And if you go on further reaching smaller length dimensions of order 10^(-20), 10^(-25), 10^(-30), 10^(-40) and further, and further then also real number system says there exists smaller dimensions. So you can never cut a piece to a smallest dimension even if you are given infinite time. And you know the smallest dimension is nothing but a point, and it has been proved that point can never obtained. If you are not convinced with that then lets take another example you are given a graph sheet and asked to mark a point 2.5cm away from origin along X-axis. This would be the easiest graph you would ever plot but I would say not even the greatest mathematician will be able to plot this. The answer is simple, it is impossible to have a scale which would measure exactly 2.5cm from origin. And if such a scale exists then the manufacturer has to spend infinite amount of time for checking that the scale exactly reads 2.5000000000000000000000........................................... and these zeros continue up to infinity. Now you will say me somewhere you have to make an approximation, lets check up to 20 zeros after 2.5 and consider it as exact 2.5cm. And this is where the concept of discreteness gets introduced. Unknowingly we are considering length is discrete and dimensions are discrete. Is integration a continuous process ? Most of you may think Integration a continuous process but it is not. While performing integration we are assuming that the variable quantity doesn't vary over a interval say "dx" or "dy" and we consider this interval to be tending to zero and exactly here we are bringing discreteness in disguise. Now, let me introduce you to a brand new theory called as "COMPACT DISCRETE THEORY OF UNIVERSE" which deals with discreteness of various fundamental quantities. Here are the two postulates :
( Natural Constants number system includes all natural constants like charge of an electron, Value of pie, Napier's constant (e) etc)
A little boy's storyOnce upon a time there was a little boy who had never seen the outside world other than his house. His parents taught him everything they could and finally they decided to send him to the school. So the little boy goes to a school... there for the first time he finds lots of other kids running, shouting, laughing, playing...... The boy stares them but he doesn't know how to play, he doesn't know what is fun all about ... he is just confused looking at the other kids. Days pass by and neither did he try to talk with anyone nor did the other kids notice about him. He was alone, isolated and confused. One day it rained heavily and the school ground got filled with rain water. All the kids were dancing in the water and making noise except the little boy. Suddenly he saw some boys were making paper ships and there was a ship race. This excited him, he went near to that place to have a closer look. But the other boys didn't allow him to play since he didn't have his own paper ship. After reaching home the little boy learns the art of making ships from his mother and makes lot of ships. Next day, once again all the boys gather to have ship race... the little boy proudly joins the other boys with around 25 ships. Unfortunately all his paper ships sink and he loses the race. Other boys make fun of him since he had most number of ships in the race and still he lost. After a dissapointing first race, the little boy decides to do something innovative. He makes a water proof ship with polythene packets. He uses the jersey milk packets cover made up of plastic to make ships. This time he wins the race... the other boys started talking to him. Everyday he made better ships and he won the race every day. He was the undisputed winner...........until the water got dried. No more the kids gathered to have ship race...no more the other boys were talking to him ... once agian he was alone. He waited for the rain ... he waited for the ship race.....neither did it rain nor did anyone asked him to play another game. That little boy was me.... Mohammed Abubakr and I am still waiting for that rain. My life is still the same... alone, isolated and confused. When I win something, I see lot of people around me but when there is nothing going on in my life... I find no one. Neither did anyone tried to understand me nor did I try to understand people. But then, life has always been like my ships ... innovative and unbeatable. I am thankful to the Almighty God for all the luck and mercy he has blessed me, without which I wouldn't have survived in this untruthful world. Why Indian Astronomy got Screwed up ?Yes, that's the big question "Why Indian Astronomy got Screwed up ?" Any early thoughts in your mind ? Well, lets just analyze the situation.
Screwed up ? Oh, yeah, it really got scrwed up. Let me give you a small example and I will then relate it to Indian Astronomy. "Imagine, there is a student who scored exellent marks till 10th class and after that the student starts failing in all the exams. Don't you call the student has screwed up his/her life ?" That's exactly thing happened with Indian Astronomy. Around 1500 years back, their were some remarkable discoveries done by "few noted" astronomers in India. Then suddenly, there was a huge null, and if you look at the scenario deeply, the null is still going on. What were the reasons for Indian Astronomy getting screwed up ?
1. Some might argue that Indians were under foriegn rulers and it badly affected astronomy. This arguement is absolutely incorrect. Astronomy doesn't require money, it requires ideas, persistent effort and will to understand the universe. The foriegn rulers hardly had any role to play in declining the ideas of Indian Astronomers. In my opinion, Indian Astronomers failed to capitalize the situation. I mean, they had more chances of making their research global. They could have easily presented their ideas before wide audiance. However, they totally failed.
2. One of the major reason for "indian astronomy getting screwed up" is the "involvement of religious sentiments" in astronomy. One of the major hurdle before Indian Astronomers was to convince the people about wrong beliefs exsiting in thier religions. Believe it or not, people in those days believed in all kind of strange stories, for example "sun gets swallowed by a devil during solar ecllipse". And it is even surprizing to note that "there are still millions of people in India who believe in those stories". The astronomers were forced to give up their research by the religious heads. This situation was also faced by Galileo and other European Astronomers. However, the European astronomers succedded in overcoming the religious powers and Indian astronomers failed. We have to accept this fact.
3. The next reason is "Lack of good talent". Yes, even though Indian has been a very populated country, there is huge scarecity of good talent here. Generally, Indians don't accept this fact but its ture and they can't deny it. Indian never had a big pool of scientists, there were few big names but the number is too less for a large country. There were no Newtons, Einsteins born here and even if one such kind takes birth, the people will never recognize his/her efforts. If you find my statements odd, I can give you enough examples. Let me do that in future blogs.
4. Internal conficts such as Caste System was major hurdle before Indian Astronomers. Many sects of Indian people were not allowed to have basic education because they belonged to lower caste. This was the harsh reality of Indian society. In few regions of Indian, this situation still prevails. It is a great shame on the educated people of those times to have behaved in the above said manner.
5. Too much of belief in the past days of glory affected Indian astronomy badly. Past is past, people know you by what you are today and will be in future. Indians failed to understand this and paid a heavy price. Even today I find many people who contribute nothing to future and sing slogans of past.
Being a scientistBeing a scientist is such an odd choice, you don't get to enjoy much. Look at cricketers, damn within couple of years they get to date the most beautiful girls. Damn Dhoni is dating Deepika Padukone, I really envy him. Why don't people realize that "Scientists" put far more hardwork than any of the cricketers. But somehow girls get impressed by cricketers, singers,dancers, etc. Damn, i really feel bad for scientists. Whole life they spend in isolations for the inventions, discoveries and finally the people like Dhoni enjoy the fruit.
Imagine, if scientists would have not discovered telivision, Dhoni woun't have done any Advertizements and I am sure Deepika wouldn't have dated him then. It's all because of scientists... and yet the poor scientists remain single and isolated. You won't find a rock concert without mikes, loud speakers and lots of electronics, yet you don't find anyone appreciating those. Comon, there have been many sceintists who have spend their life time in inventing "amplifiers, noice removers, power circuits, mike systems, etc and no one gives credit to them.
Its the greatness of scientists that they dedicate their whole life in designing, inventings things for the benefit of people. And the disgraceful people never respect scientists in their life time. They are forced to live on megre saleries, force to bear critisizms, force to give up all pleasures in life and finally what do they get ? People don't even bother to respect them in their life time. Sometimes I feel scientists should never discover a vaccine for AIDS, anyhow they hardly have sex in their life, there is very minute chances that they ever get AIDS in life. Le the people die of AIDS. Its only the stupid people who accquire AIDS through precautionless sex. Anyhow, we scientists are most kind hearted people on this Planet earth, we will still decidate our lives in finding the vaccines. One of the other reason for it is that the stupid people do not have minimum common sense to not have kids when they have AIDS and we(scientists) don't want innocent kids to die because of the mistakes committed by their parents.
Scientists have benefited immensely for the developement of human race otherwise humans would have been competing with monkeys for bananas.
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Date: 12-02-2006 Mohd Abubakr Signature Circular form of Periodic TableStudy of atomic elements reveals the presence of a systematic structure within the atom. The chemical behavior of the atom is determined by the count of the electrons present in it and more precisely the valence electrons. This internal electronic structure is theoretically represented in the form of electronic configuration of the element. Every element has its unique electronic configuration. The presence of similarities and symmetries in electronic configuration of different atomic elements leads to the classification of elements into families.
In 1869 Russian Chemist Mandeleeff arranged the elements in a form of table by considering atomic weight as the periodicity parameter. From the relationship embodied in the table, he predicted the existence as well as the properties of the elements then unknown. However in 1913 Henry Moseley identified that chemical and physical properties of the elements are more dependent on the number of electrons rather than atomic weight. He referred the number of electrons in an element as atomic number and modified the basis of classification of elements from atomic weight to atomic number. With theoretical advances such as electronic configuration of elements it was established that atomic number is the basis of periodicity.
The Modern form of Periodic table is based on the electronic configuration of the elements with priority to the valence electrons. It consists of 18 vertical columns called as groups and 7 horizontal rows called as periods. Also keeping in mind the importance of the outer shell electrons the table is divided into blocks namely s, p and d blocks. With all the advantages over Mandeleeff’s Periodic Table the Modern form of periodic table has gained wide popularity as standard representation of elements. Various aspects that favor Modern Periodic table are size, chemical behavior, atomic radius, ionization energy, electron affinity, electro negativity metallic character, binding energies, diagonal relationships etc.
The major disadvantage of the Modern Periodic table is its shape itself. Rectangular arrangement of elements puts constraints in describing the properties of the elements such as shape, atomic structure, nucleus, etc. With the developments in the nucleon shell model it is far more informative to have a complete periodic table showing both nucleon as well as electronic structure.
To incorporate more and more amount of properties in a form of arrangement of elements a new circular of periodic table is put forward. The aim of this circular form of table is make a student understand the atomic structure and its properties along side the periodic table. This table does include all the properties of the Modern Periodic table meanwhile adding further advantages. Silent features of Circular Form of Periodic Table:
Quantum mechanics...Well, I am starting this new blog entry after a long time and as usual i have absolutely no idea what i am eventually going to write. There are like millions things that i would like to share with you people but when i start writing I find nothing to write. I have to overcome this problem as soon as possible. Before I forget to mention, recently I wrote a paper called "On Dimensional Analysis Redundancy in set of fundamental quantities and Proposal of a New Set", its available on Arxiv. Here is the link http://arxiv.org/abs/0710.3483. Do check out and let me know what you have understood.
Now that I have been confirmed at Microsoft, I was thinking of how to proceed further about my research. Life is such a comprimise, you always have to sort out priorities. Ofcourse, research is my top priority but since I am paided at Microsoft, I have to benefit them as well. Oflate, I am reading a lot about Quantum Mechanics, its a strange field of science, No matter how much you read, it still remains as mysterious as it was at the begining. There is lot of thrill to know how the nature behaves at the sub-atomic levels. However, QM can just be wrong or would be requiring a major modification as its incompatible with General theory of Relativity. The problem is that QM doesn't support Gravity, though the effective gravity at sub-atomic level is almost negligible. However, at large distances Gravity plays a major role. Due to this, QM is not applicable at Large distances. Some crazy guys believe that String theory is going to replace QM/Relativity as a complete theory but I have my own doubths about string theory. I somehow feel, the universe is far more simple than string theory interprets it to be. 26 Dimensions reduced to 10 dimensions, phew... that's too much for my brain to take. Actually, the string theoriest arrived at 26 dimensions due to Dirac's equation. Anyhow, at this point let not get into it. We can debate on String theory some other time, i might invite Newton as well for the discussion.
The major problem with physics is that it has become too complicated for a common man to understand. Especially the young students find it very different to find and visualize what they study in their books, plus there is huge scarcity of professors and books that explain modern physics theories in a understandable way. Too much of maths is too bad for number of followers, that was the mantra of Stephen Hawking in his books. Currently, I am thinking about possible ways to reaching to students, making them understand QM, relativity and other stuff which is generally attributed as "Complicated" in a simple and elagant way. One idea I have in mind is to post some lecture series on "Youtube" by explaining QM just with "simple words". However, its a tough task as QM without Maths is difficult. Anyhow, I am drafting few ideas, real world examples and soon you will be seeing me on Youtube explaining Quantum Mechanics. At this point, I am not sure how people are going to take it. Lets see...
Moving on, I am free for next few days, so probably you will find more blog sessions from me. Actually, last two months have been depressing for me from research point of view. I have been pushing myself but as you know with so many distractions around its becoming too difficult, after i am just a normal human being. Anyhow guyz, i concentrating on some new ideas. Pray for my Luck and success.
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Fightback against time...Damn, what's this life ? What have I become ? I think I am losing all my senses. No matter how much I am trying to motivate myself, I am not getting that zeal to start the work again. I am destroying the Abubakr I created years ago. I desperately need to get back to my research. But how ? I am wasting time on Orkut, wasting time thinking about crap things, wasting time thinking about past.. what's this life.
I am unable to retain that "determined interest" even for hours. I am giving away every thought that I get. God, please help me. I don't want to end up my life as an ordinary human being. Please, shower some mercy on me. I hate myself for wasting away all those valuable seconds. I can't believe I have spent 3 hours on orkut. I hate google for coming up with a new look for orkut, that actually instigated me to keep browzing. I am all screwed today... God knows why....
Thinking to start.. and to start.. there is so much of difference.. Alrite the wait is over.. Abbu is going to start the paper now.. bye guyz.. will let you know tomarrow abt it. Why always me ?Just heard someone shouting "why always me ?"
Lots of people have asked me that "why do you write all sad things in your blogs ? can't you write something chearful ? " well, guys, blog is a place where I remove my desperation and frustration.
When ever you are angry or frustrated, the best thing to do is shout, shout so louder that all the anger in you goes out. Now, my problem is that I can't shout, so I try to express my sadness through blogging. I just realized that I am so damn bad at English. Neither I have a good vocablory nor the talent to frame beautiful sentences. My deep consicious asks me "is it required ?"
Every citizen of the developed nation speaks and does research in their own native language. And we Indians have lost our identity. We are more interested in intimidating outsiders and we are hypocratic enough to not accept this fact. Anyhow, forget it. My ideas are often confusing for others, sometimes for me as well.
Why does my brain goes so null whenever I start writing the blog ? Damn, trying to pick one topic out of infinite things happening around and finding it so difficult. Yesterday, India Lost the match and lost my sleep. However, I don't like to discuss this topic here since its so damn outdated. I have lost my interest in cricket, maybe few years ago I would have written pages on this topic but today I am happy not analyzing cricket.
So, what shall we talk ? Let me put it in this way, how should i bore you ? Actually, after sometime my blogs will become interesting. I am slowly slowly gaining that nack of writing interesting things. There was a time when I was proud of my sense of humor and I am making a huge effort to bring it back. But how should i bring ? I know, now i am really confusing you all. Well, i think there is hardly anyone who reads my blog!!
By the way, yesterday I made a resolution to change my day to day life. It was becoming too predictable. Confining life with limited thoughts is the last thing i want to do in this life. Life has taught me many lessons, from aiming at skies to falling flat on ground. One of my friend said long back that "i am loser by heart but winner by brain". Wow, that was good. However, I want to change it now, I have fallen in love with science and I don't want to break my heart atleast this time. I think again, I am deviating from the topic. Actually I think I have this habit, I start from one thing and finally end up with another.
I will end this crap by now. Bye Take care.
water and problemsMost of the times I keep wondering about how to start the new topic. When I am not before the computer I get around million ideas which I would like to express from Indo-US Nuke deal to Quantum Entanglement. But when I start writing something, the words don't come. Probably what distinguishes a writer from others is the ability to keep expressing a insignificant thing in a very interesting way. I am 99% sure I don't have that ability. Considering the fact that I have very limited english vocablory, I find it very difficult to give workings to my emotions. There is so much to say in life and yet most of it goes down in silence. Even though we all have an "Freedom to Expression" right, we often don't use to its best. We regulate ourselves from giving opinions and taking a stance for majority of the issues going on in our society.
Morning while taking bath, I got lost into a throught concerning "Water". It took few scoldings from my mom to recover back to normal situation as I made half of my water tank empty. The water drops striking my head had a strange effect on my head. They wanted to convey me something, there is something different about "water" that we haven't yet discovered. Can you imagine your life without this amazing compound ? I don't know, why I still feel there is something unknown, mysterious and intriguing about it.
Unfortunately, nowadays, I have lost my touch in writing papers. My thinking curve has taken a negative slope ever since september 2007. I hate my brain spending time processing all philosophical and emotional thoughts. People around me have created such mental set backs that I am yet to recover fully from it. One damn thing after another, the list goes on and You find me middle of no where. Anyhow, at this moment I want to forget every damn thing that happend.
I am trying hard to get my speed, accuracy and creativity back. Once again I want to get back to the stage where I percieved fragrance of flowers as aromatic nature of corboxilic benzyl components. Not sure whether its corboxilic benzyl, i think its para aldehyde ortho methy beneze. See, this is my state. There was a time when chemistry was my favorite subject. Probably the only subject I loved. The things I love I never get.. that's how my life has always been...
Think WeekSuch a bad news that submissions for "Think Week" are already closed. Hey, I am not dissappointed. If not today, I am sure I will have my hands on it next year. By the way, Interns are not allowed for this event. So it would have not made much difference.
Today I read Amir Khan's Blog, www.lagaandvd.com/blog.php . It was really facinating and Amir is really a creative person. The way he is handling the blog and replying to the questions is really awesome.
Just now received this mail from Sedsic team
DEAR SIR, AS YOU KNOW THAT WE HAVE ALREADY CLOSED ACCEPTING ABSTRACTS FROM 10TH AUGUST ITSELF AND THE ABSTRACTS HAVE ALREADY REACHED THE INTERNATIONAL REVIEWERS SO WE ARE EXTREMELY SORRY TO SAY THAT WE CANNOT RECIEVE YOUR ABSTRACT AS ON NOW. WE ARE INDEED VERY SORRY FOR THE SAME SIR. THANK YOU FOR YOUR INTEREST IN SEDSIC07 YOURS FAITHFULLY Ms KRISHNA MOHANTY EVENT COORDINATOR NAKSHATRA SEDSIC TEAM PH NO -09994627720 The worst thing is that I have submitted the paper right on time. I have no damn idea why it reached on 14th August whereas I have submitted the paper on 10th August. what to say...I tried installed Latex but its there seems to be some problem. I hate getting struck up. Was working on an old paper which I left in the middle.
Got another 15 minutes to catch the cab and I have no idea who to do for this 15 minutes. Thought of writing something interesting but at the moment I am all blown up. Dance Practice for tomarrow's 1001 event is going great except that I am missing all the steps. Dhoom 2 steps are quite cool, the problem is coming with some crap telugu song. Lets see how it turns out tomarrow. After delivering those wonderful papers on stage, this will be my first attempt in a new field. I hope once again success comes on my way. By the way, I don't have any damn expectations from it. Even if people call me a bad dancer, I will still be famous.
Hmm.. I am running short of words, typing something without a proper theme so damn difficult.
I will cut my crap here. Good night. Me and Newton { scientific discussion }Abbu: Terribly getting bored with my life, no new ideas striking the brain. What am i supposed to do in such situations ?
Newton: Scientifically speaking, ideas don't strike when the brain doesn't generate enough number of random thoughts. Or its deviated over another thing.
Abbu: Probably, that's the case with me. At the moment, I am all screwed with myself. I am wasting enough time on stupid things.
Newton: Stupid things like what ?
Abbu: There's enough amount of distraction around. Sometimes I get so annoyed with life, i wish i was a Non-sexual organism.
Newton: What do you mean by Non-sexual organism ?
Abbu: ahh... i mean an organism which doesn't have feeling for the opposite sex.
Newton: dude, you are going astray. I tried the same and people ended up calling me homosexual.
Abbu: Then what should i do ? btw, are there any physical objects that have this property ?
Newton: ??
Abbu: Well, you see.. quantities such as charge, poles, etc have their counterparts. And then there are quantities such as Mass which doesn't have any known counter part. are there any quantities that doesn't have any counter part and they doesn't attract each other..
Newton: Good question. .. Matter - Anti- matter ..
Abbu: yeap.. quantum mechanics has a concept of negative mass
Newton: Is it ? damn, i have lots of conflicts with quantum mechanics
Abbu: Mass and Mass gives gravity, call it as mass-mass attraction
Newton: possitive charge - negative charge attraction
Abbu: North pole - South pole attraction
Newton: hey, there's another thing, for charge and poles, there is repulsion as well
Abbu: Yeah, that doesn't exist for Mass.. this damn gravity itself is so mysterious
Newton: so now, we are looking for quantities that behave as "neutral"
Abbu: hey dude, we do have Neutron, that's neutral with respect to charge but does have mass
Newton: this conversation is getting really interesting
Abbu: Can there be a quantity that neutralizes all the forces ?
Newton: that's exactly what i was thinking
Abbu: if such quantity exists it can behave as "isolated Universe"
Newton: isolated Universe ?
Abbu: yeah, imagine this "the quantity has no effect of any of the forces, it is impossible to communicate with such quantity.."
Newton: yeah.. exactly. It behaves like an isolated system, a system which cannot be communicated. Can such system communicate with us ?
Abbu: that's the exact question going through my mind
Newton: if it has to communicate iwth us, it needs to exert a force that can have an effect on us
Abbu: yeah, and if it has to do that, then it needs to break the symmetry.
Newton: yeah, either it breaks the symmetry .. but breaking symmetry is a very complicated process here
Abbu: ??
Newton: look, the situation is like this, suppose Particle X which is Isolated, wants to communicate with Particle Y . It has to send any one or more number of known force.. hence atleast one symmetry is broken, if it uses electrostatic force, then it needs to generate charge and so on..
Abbu: wow.. do you think such particles exist in our universe ?
Newton: Well, how can i say that ?.. i can't communicate with them right ?
Abbu: haha... anyhow lets try to understand the properties of such particle
Newton: cool.. i was also thinking the same
Abbu: wait.. i guess lets start writing a paper on this ..titled "Disconnected System With a System"
Newton: cool..
Abbu: Lets go in a standard way.. i am downloading LaTex ... let me finish it
___ Remaining conversation once i am done with my LaTex Download. Thanks for reading___
Life at MicrosoftNo matter how much I have planned my life, God always had a new thing planned for me. Fortunately God has been very kind by giving me more than I can ask for. 7 months back I wouldn't have believed that I would be interning at Microsoft. Actually I had no damn interest in software.
But then, life has changed now. Free food at canteen, free cool drinks, choclate milk, high speed internet to blog, etc have become part of life. Being an Intern at Microsoft is such a great experiance, people here are so supportive and co-ordial. I had all wrong notion about the professional people, after joining microsoft it all changed. No dress code, no timings and handsome pay, what else can i ask for ? My mom says "I have become lazier than before now". Now-d-days I get up 12:00 PM, reach microsoft by 2:30 noon, and well after that you all know... orkuting, chatting and blogging. Hey wait, I missed out something important, i mean "the work". Trust me, if you put your brain properly for one hour a day, you can finish of all the work. Generally, it doesn't happen that way. You tend to get distracted by something or the other. For example, today when I went to cafetaria, there was this gorgeous tall lady in saree. Her height was more than me and she was damn hot. What am I supposed to do ? It was naturally distracting.
Maintaining proper concentration is a really a tough thing with so many distractions around. I forgot to say, that lady was wearing backless. It just flashed on my mind now, hence thought of mentioning. I know, I am sounding very stupid but my thoughts are natural. Anyhow, lets come back to the topic, My first five months of internship was at MMS CoE. If you wondering what it stands for, keep wondering. I developed some cool tools for Data Protection Manager V2 using Windows PowerShell Scripting language.
A week back I joined ACE Performance Team for two more months of internship. Had some training on performance tools and at the moment banging my head trying to understand various aspects of networks. Lets see where the life takes...
getting bored with lifeWell guys, now-a-days i am not writing papers as much as i used to write before. Probably that's because I have lost motivation in life. I don't know how to explain it, all i can say is that it hurts. How can i stay away from writing papers ?
Few days back I came across call for posters for High performance computing conference (www.hipc.org). Suddenly I could see that enthusiam in all my neurons but then it damped pretty quickly. No Idea why this is happening. Also, at the moment I am unable to generate some good research ideas. My instinct says "i have lost my touch" but then there is always a thing called "hope". I am just hoping this period won't last long. Writing Papers is integral part of my life, it would be a great loss to be if i fail to write good papers.
One of the main reason I started Blogging is to start using key excessively. Just trying my luck that while writing any blog I might get any new idea.
Yes, got one stupid idea.. From now on I will try to express my split personality in my future posts.
Science ke Side/EffectsIts very difficult to understand the way human brain generates random thoughts. Well, I haven't done much research in Cognitive sciences, hopefully i will do it in future. The worst problem in my life has been "over thinking over a situation". If that didn't make sense to you then let me explain in simpler words.
For any damn stupid situation, I tend to think from multiple directions. The condition gets worse when I read newspaper. I tend to analyze every politian's view, its future effects and how does it help the nation. And most of the times, I end up scolding the politian and cursing the people who follow them. Sometimes, just by the speech of the politian you can understand that he/she is lieing. I hate the people who become patriotic by listening to the speeches of politians. Damn, India doesn't need patriotism, we already have excess of it. What we need is development, what we need is proper schemes, what we need is discipline but no one talks about it.
I am 21 now and legally allowed to Vote during elections. But whom should I vote ? Majority of the politians are criminals, rowdies and charecterless people. And its the unfortunate state of the nation is that these people are leading the nation. For a party to be in Power, it needs 272 seats in Lok Sabha. Out of the 272 members of the party with majority, minimum 150 members are criminals. Now to run the government has to protect all those criminals to retain the power in the parliament. Now do you call this system as democracy ?
Whatever.. I guess I am deviating from the topic. yes, we are back to Science ke Side/Effects. There are lots of funny incidents that I can mention here. Long back, i wrote a love letter... ahem ahem.. to a girl.. but unfortunately it was more like a paper. According to people love letter is supposed to be romantic but this is no ordinary love letter, it was written by a scientific mind, hence it was more like a scientific paper. Actually in that love letter, i was trying to calculate the probability of getting accepted. Well, you know all those integrations , differentiation, lots of equations,... and since i wrote the mail in Yahoo so it doesn't support mathematical symbols I was force to write symbols as "epsilon", "delta" .... Obviously that girl might have thought "what the heck .. is he proposing me or a scientific theory ?? ".. hehehe.. The end result she told me "I don't carry any feelings for you". Guess what i did after that, i started studying neural signal processing. Why ?
Its simple... unknowingly she inspired me to study that. Had she said "I don't have any feeling for you" it would have been plain english. I would have felt dissappointed for day or two and then would have been back to my research. But she used the specific word "carry". Now, to carry a particular feeling, one needs memory, a register to load it and lots of neural signal processing. So simple !! Now I forgot everything else and starting studing/thinking about neural signal processing. It was only after 10-15 days I realised that girl has rejected me. But till then, I think I was more interested in Cognitive Sciences than her.
I have simple rule in life, whatever happens in life can lead to a scientific discovery. Every little thing is important. One need not wait for the Newton's apple to fall. That apple can be anything for you!!
Passion for Science...The only good thing about my life has been my passion towards science. Even though I have given nothing to science so far but it has given me everything. From Respect to livelihood, Science has given me everything that I can ask for.
From my side, I have always given everything to science. One example about this I can give is "...long back my dad had a heart-attack and he was in I.C.U. Any son on the planet earth wouldn't have sat outside I.C.U reading about the Eigen Vectors and Matrixs. That day people cursed me like hell for being so called "disgraceful son". But was I ? After few days when my dad recovered totally, that's after a heart surgery he called me and asked about this indicent. My only reply was "I would have brought you back to this world by constructing a time machine". He knew, I would have done it for real.
Actually, I wrote few relativistic equations to reverse the time frame {minkowshi's vector} and to obtain the solution, the easiest way was to use Matrices. The inverse of the Matrix satisfies the reverse order equation for the time frame. That was the "stupid" theoretical framework for Time Machine. Fortunately, I don't need a time machine anymore, my dad is well and healthy.
Some professor adviced me that "I should concentrate only in one field". Probably he is right but for me it puts a contraint over my thinking. I want to be free, I want creative freedom to understand, analyze, propose and disprove. Its not easy to switch between astronomy, electronics, computer sciences, quantum mechanics etc but I am used to it. When we can see, smell, feel, listen and taste why can't we perceive research in multiple things ? Its just the inability of many people that forces them to think that way. I am more inspired by LeoNardo da vinci who could do many thing all at a time.
I have to acknowledge the effort of my parents here. Its not easy to handle a son like me who likes to see every other thing scientifically.
Long back, I doubted the existence of God. I wasn't calling myself as Muslim as I doubted the idea of Religion as science was my only religion. Imagine what my parents would have gone through during this phase of time. But my parents never forced me to change my thoughts, instead they gave me a book called "The Holy Quran" and asked me "Prove atleast one single sentence in this book wrong scientifically". That's it.
For Six months, I read the English Version the book "The Holy Quran" and believe it or not there's some magic. I couldn't find even a single sentence that conflicts with science. Infact the book was written in 8th Centuary AD and yet it incorporates the most advanced science. From black holes to semiconductors, it has it all. This was like a revolution for me.
Well, hopefully in my future blogs I will discuss more about the advance science in Holy Quran. .........In the name of Allah the Most Merciful the Most Beneficial........Life is very odd, it always tries to dictate terms to you. There are things which I wanted to do in Life and there are many things which I never wanted to do.
There is always a conflict between heart and brain. Whenever I used my heart, I ended up regretting over my decisions. Its not that I have only done good in Life, there are some dark truths in my life which I would never like to disclose. I wish I could delete those memories from my brain, I wish I could modify the Cosmological Timeline to make my life a bit more respectful.
Sometimes I think "I am the biggest sinner in the world" and sometimes my memory goes so bad that I can only recollect the good things I have done. Nevertheless, the things I have done can't be changed no matter what. That's the truth that hurts me most.
When things go wrong, they go wrong as a chain reaction. One damn thing leads to another and I kept on entering into the dark world of sins. The sins that I can't openly confess, the sins that burden my thoughts and peace of mind.
People ask me "why do you do so many things at a time ?" The reason is I want to avoid my brain thinking about those sins. I want to give my brain so much amout of work that it finds no time to recollect and repent. I know I am bad, I know I am sinner... but somewhere deep in my heart that good person is still alive that makes me write all this. I wish that good person had control over my life.
Long back I wrote this
"Days of dirt and nights of sin
I am already dead, put me in coffin"
I can only hope that God forgives my sins. But then, I want to get punished. Please Pray for me. |
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